Scripture Reflection - The Israelites are in the blame mode, making the statement of ‘didn’t we tell you?’ Reminding Moses they didn’t want to leave their past, easier, well known life in Egypt because it was easier and they had it good when they were slaves. Good in the sense that even though they were held captive, they were told exactly what to do, when to do it and when they did what they were told they would receive compensation for their work.
Their flesh or humanness wanted the easier softer way of life because it was what they knew and they knew exactly where the enemy was. They had not built up new coping skills in their current surroundings of freedom. The enemy was lurking and trying to take them back. They would need to get better at depending on God, to be on guard and to be more aware of their surroundings.
Current Reflection - The easier, softer way is what our flesh wants. It is hard work to leave our past and the comfort zone of our routine life, even if it is holding us in bondage. The new, unfamiliar environment is shocking to our system. The ease of what is common to us is safe and more natural; there is no thinking or contemplating what to do next.
The new way, the way to more freedom is not familiar. We do not know the way; we do not know what will happen. Simply said, ‘let me go back, I like the old way’! We have fear so we start whining and complaining because we do not know what to do next.
It is difficult to look at ourselves. It means evaluating our behaviors and adjusting to the new environment. We will need to work on flaws within ourselves to keep going strong to get to the promise land. If our true desire is to keep pursuing God and staying on the journey, we need to come to the realization we will endure some pain of looking through our past.
The enemy will come and pursue us and we need to be on guard. We need to beware of our surroundings and keep our attention alert to where the enemy is lurking. When we say ‘yes’ to God and earnestly want His help, it will get hard, it will be painful and we will want to turn back to where we came from, the place of comfort. But we can’t!
Personal Reflection – Complaining is so much easier then fixing my attitude or taking time to examine why there is fear. Most of the time my mind is in overload with too many thoughts that turn to fears. I simply can’t think straight and make any rational decisions.
For me, if I can stop myself physically then my ‘overloaded mind’ and ‘fast paced’ body can become quiet. Quiet enough to get my thoughts back on track and towards God. To make myself stop, sit or lay down for five minutes to actually breathe really helps. To take a few deep, exhaling breaths and get my mind realigned with God. He will refresh me. He’s the only one who understands my crazy mind. He can refocus me when I have these little break downs of complaining and fear. Once I have realigned and got my positive self back I can start again with a much more focused mind set.
This is not easy! To stay out of the blame mode I have come to the understanding that my eyes must stay on me. I cannot blame others for my situation. It has taken years of failure in this area of trying to recognize when I’m off course and to realize the things I need to do to get back on the journey. It’s been a challenge, yet I’ve come to realize if I want to stay on God’s path I must refocus and keep trusting Him.