Words are hard to describe the way I feel. It’s like when I lost my mother-in-law. Similar, because the love I had for him was one just as I’ve had for loved ones. Yet, different, because no words were said from him to tell you how much he loved us and will miss us.
When my mother-in-law died, I experienced for the first time how my heart ached when she left us. Literally feeling a pain in my heart. It was the same feeling yesterday when we said our final good-byes to our ‘forever friend’ and family member Ranger.
What am I feeling? The loss of unconditional love that was available every minute of the day. Happiness to see me no matter what my mood would be at the given time. A wagging tail each time I came home. An alarming bark to notify me of a delivery vehicle coming into the yard. My floor cleaner of any crumb or mess when I was cooking. The one who would never talk back to me and still stood by my side during my worst times.
My tears of sadness must be changed to tears of joy for all the wonderful times he brought to my life.
He is now in heaven running, barking endlessly at delivery people, eating his favorite carrots and green beans from someone’s garden, and loving the walks and snacks with my mother-in-law.
To my coffee and God time partner I will miss you every day. You left your paw print on my heart and will always be my ‘forever friend’! Love you – Ranger