My husband and I just finished a two week vacation at our lake cabin. A side note is needed before going further; we are blessed beyond measure to have a lake cabin and to be able to take a vacation. God has poured many gifts upon us and we do not take them lightly. Back to the vacation - we can’t remember the last time we took two weeks off. We’ve laughed out loud thinking, maybe we never have taken off for that long!
The first few days we worked on several large projects and completed a few smaller ones. Having a lake cabin other will say, “Wow, that is so great to be able to go to the lake and relax.” They all forget it is a second home which has all the same responsibilities; mowing, maintenance of the structures, paying taxes, break downs, etc.
The first week was focused on working and getting all the “honey do list” items completed. The second week was time for relaxing and enjoying. If you read my short version of my Thoughts from Sue last week you will see I had a very difficult time relaxing and not having a project to work on or a list, or my calendar to refer to on what I needed to do next. This is a more in-depth explanation of my faults. I have major issues relaxing! I’m too hard on my husband and it’s not his problem. Yes, I know I have to eat my words!
I can justify everything in my mind – he’s the one who comes up with all these work projects. It’s not just one thing, it’s a long list, and he makes jokes of it and says, “The lake cabin is Work Camp.” I found myself complaining and repeatedly saying to anyone who would listen, “All we ever do is work.” These statements have been said so much in the last few months, I was not finding either of them funny anymore. As we approached our vacation, I had heard all the details of each project, and I had gone to Menard’s with him several times to help buy the supplies needed.
DYI projects are Americans past time, right? Reality shows, YouTube videos and Pinterest pins are the craze amongst those willing to give it a try on their own. It boosts the economy by buying ample supplies to complete the newest project on the “to do” list. It’s even created a new generation of Do It Yourself yuppies! We are one of them, saving money and putting a lot of elbow grease into whatever we are working on. It is satisfying to see if you can accomplish it, in addition to keeping us physically fit and we use our creative juices to see how resourceful we can be with each project.
Back to the problem – it’s me not being able to relax and have a project to work on. I can’t sit still and enjoy the lake. Doing nothing, just chilling, read a book, take a nap, nope, each of them have been a challenge. Ugh! Are you getting the picture? If not, I’ll spell it out, I’m the problem, not my husband! I’m the one who can’t sit still, rest and enjoy vacation.
He laughed at me for several days because I couldn’t sit still for ten minutes. He’d said to me, “Sue, relax, we’re on vacation. Go take a nap in the hammock, go sit by the lake and just let everything go.” Those of you who know me well, quit laughing so hard and shaking your head.
Over the years, I’ve worked on my flaws and defects, but God continually reveals more to me. As I lay in the hammock long enough to still my mind and body and breathe in very deeply, I asked God “WHY?” Why do I have such a hard time relaxing?
As I shared last week, there are several issues revealed but it seems to boil down to not trusting God. I say this because it is lack of being ok with whatever is happening at that very moment. It’s a good thing to work and be productive. We are not to be lazy and idle; however, I take it to the extreme by rarely sitting still. Trusting God to speak to me and lead me to the next right thing. It could be a work project, but it also could be to rest, enjoy and see the beauty of what is right in front of me.
It took a conscious effort and practice to sit sill while I was on vacation. To remember it’s not all about work and the projects to be finished. We truly enjoyed the last full week of vacation and teased each other as we counted the continual days we had not done any work related project. Three days was our highest amount of doing what you should do on vacation – wake up late, have coffee on the deck, go for a leisurely walk, indulge in good food, visit with neighbors, watch a movie and go to bed late.
I did relax, I did enjoy and I did hear God and for that I say Thank You! Please take time to enjoy what God puts right in front of you!