Over the years, I’ve worked on my flaws and defects, but God continually reveals more to me. I did stop to reflect on this weakness yesterday. As I stilled my mind and body to let God in I get emotional and weepy. I’ve finally let my barriers down and let Him in. Then I can ask him, WHY? Why do I have such a hard time relaxing?
Here’s what was revealed to me, in no particular order.
- I was raised with a strong work ethic, repeatedly being told, working equaled success.
- My mind is going constantly, it rarely rest. Therefore, my body comes along.
- My personality is one of seeking out accomplishments, seeing results means satisfaction.
- I’m still working on having a more complete understanding of peace and contentment.
I’m trying, truly trying. God help me learn how to rest. Teach me to understand the importance of ceasing from all activities, to be quiet enough to hear the birds chirping, to watch the wind move the leaves on the trees and to calm my soul. Papa God renew my soul.
And, I respectfully ask each of you to keep me in your prayers, to let God work in me so the broken soul can be mended. Amen.